Thank you so much for your comments on my last post. I feel especially touched to receive kind words from my own friends on Facebook.
I thought I'd take this opportunity to say a few words about parenting. One morning when I pulled the van up to the curb and let the kids out at their school, one of the other moms called out to me: "How's it going?" I responded, "Well, I've been pulling out the parenting books again!"
I don't often find parenting an easy thing, but I do believe that it's perhaps the most valuable thing I will do in my lifetime. Raising great kids is the dream of any parent, I imagine. I can't remember where I first got the idea of "thoughtful" parenting, but to me, it is the opposite of "reactive" parenting. So often when I parent, I am parenting in reaction to the moment, to my own childhood experiences, to what I think is right at the time, to what my friend would agree with, and to my initial response at slamming doors, shouting, pushing, whining, ignoring, arguing, mess, running late, and toothpaste smeared on the edge of the sink (and a bit on the bathroom mirror). In fact, even as I am typing this post a Build-a Bear is flying over my head and then on top of the keyboard, and a child has talked to me, strutted around the table, sat cross-legged on the table, whined, stuck out her tongue at me, and done the hula. That's just an everyday moment in parenthood for me.
For each of these moments is my reaction as a parent, but to be a thoughtful parent, I am careful about my words and what I do even if it's contrary to how I am feeling inside. Only parenting could have brought out such a huge range of emotions in me: fear, guilt, helplessness, great joy, delight, wonder, anger, confusion and so many more. I have reacted in all the wrong ways as well, repeating "love is patient, love is patient" over and over to myself. The reason why I wanted to create these family beliefs is to keep
myself focused on the kind of parent I want to be and the kind of
family values my husband and I want to hold. When discipline is happening, those beliefs can be the focus: "Do you believe in respect? Then what are you going to do?" Discipline should be empowering, not punitive and humiliating. But there are also guidelines and boundaries to be defined by a parent.
So often Christians refer to "the rod of discipline": "He who spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is careful to discipline him." (Proverbs 13:24) Punishment is actually a misreading of that verse. To discipline means to "disciple", to teach, to guide, and a rod was used to guide the sheep, not to hit them. So to me, thoughtful parenting, is parenting not out of the past, but in the present, and to the individual child in loving discernment: "Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it." (Proverbs 22:6) So easy to say, not always as easy to live out. Parenting is definitely a journey. Well, having said that, I'm off to read my parenting books now and to attend to a boy who is feeling a bit distraught about his bedtime.